Hello From The Other Side...

This post is part of the “grand-reopening” of my blog. It’s a post for those of you who think you may well have a handle on the person I’ve always been. It’s an introduction, to the person I have become.

It has been very nearly a year since I last posted on this blog. Before then, it had been quite a while as well.

I’ve said a couple of times, back in the early days of this blog, that a year goes by so quickly, that it is almost inconsequential. I would like to correct myself now – I was a foolish youth, I made many mistakes in judgment, and one of these mistakes was not appreciating the value of a year.

In fact, this whole post is an apology for the foolish mistakes and over-dramatic moments I’ve treated you all to in the past. This post is a reassurance that, despite all those silly little girl moments, I have perhaps finally found my way to some semblance of grown-up-dom. However, this is not an attempt to create the illusion that I am all the way there – I don’t think anyone ever truly is, not even the real grown-ups. Rest assured friends, I am still magnificently aware of my “childish” flaws and silly habits – you won’t be deprived of their entertaining value.

This time a year ago, I was in a very different place. I was at the messy end of my longest, most serious relationship, and not dealing with it as well as I would have liked. I was thankfully about to walk into a brand new job, after having walked away from two difficult and unsatisfying positions, in the least grown up manner. However, I was walking into this job without friends, without anyone to fall back on outside of my family, and I already felt I was putting enough stress on them. I’m finally comfortable enough to admit that it was one of the most depressing times in my life, with one or two brief moments of enlightening hope (The birth of my niece for one, alongside finally finding a job I wanted to do!).

The proudest moment of my life: the birth of my niece...

I have come out the other side of that year, having gained and learned and experienced so much. I have made many friends and connections, and met so many wonderful and interesting people. I have forged a bond with my mother as we fought a battle to help save the local pub. I have helped save the local pub, even if my contribution was small. But in all this, I learned something very important – that life is a constant journey of self-discovery.

In this past year, I have learned more about myself, and what I am capable of, and what I really like and what I don’t and what I really believe. I believe this year has helped me become myself.

And so, as the title suggest, this is me, re-beginning. I am, mostly, a different person to the pubescent girl who began this blog. I am me, unashamedly, for all my over-excitable moments, silly laughs, bad ideas and whims. I am trying my best, everyday, to begin to appreciate who I have become – and I hope you’ll all bear with me as I work out the bugs.

...and one year on. 

Here's to the next year of discovery, love, and sadly for you, my blogging.